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Remdul
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Icon 9 posted February 23, 2006 22:12      Profile for Remdul   Author's Homepage     Send New Private Message       Edit/Delete Post   Reply With Quote 
They haunt me, watching my every move. Shadows hide their form, but their whispers and mockery still reach my ears, causing untolerable suffering. The Demons of Loneliness eat my soul away, slowly, every day.

I have lived in near isolation for 7 years of my life, paying not attention to the world. My eyes slowly began to open, and I realized what I was missing. Everywhere I look, I see two people in love, their bond of enshii (spiritual connections) growing stronger every day. I have a void in my heart I filled for years with the knowledge of computers and electronics. This void has grown beyond the point of the care of my computer, now. A void has opened in my heart that causes pain, sorrow, greif. I realize... I am truly alone.

I try and try to fill this void, but my years of isolation has pushed people away from me. I have dug a grave in my heart that I fear I will never be able to get out of. My nervousness around the opposite gender gets the best of me. I stand afar, watching those who I secretly admire from a distance. This, unrequited love, is the most painful experience I have ever had. I fall into states of depression because of this. The demons of loneliness have captured my heart.

Is it possible for the unworthy to be loved?
Can unrequited love be rewarded?
Is there hope?

Questions, thoughts of doubt fill my mind, leaving me incapacitated....hopeless. I saw the community here, the strong enshii bonding everyone on this forum. I felt this was a truly comforting place that I could trust. Thank you...

Remdul

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*snaps fingers repeatedly*

Nice post.


All I have to say, is this: parties involving alcohol are your friend.

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Icon 1 posted February 23, 2006 22:21      Profile for Remdul   Author's Homepage     Send New Private Message       Edit/Delete Post   Reply With Quote 
I can't say I have every drank alcohol. a 12-pack a day of MD or Pepsi, though.... Thats another story. And thanks for the compliment on the post.

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Welcome aboard, Remdul. Thanks for your open and honest introduction. Everyone feels loneliness from time to time. It seems that you are experiencing it most of the time, and that you are realizing you would like to make a change. We can be a pretty supportive community here sometimes. If we can help you in some way to get some ideas and confidence to get out into the real world, that would be awesome. Post often and make yourself at home. [Smile]

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Thank you, Maia. My biggest fear of entering this new world is the pain that can follow. I cannot help but wonder, Is it better to watch from afar, so I do not get hurt? It is a new view I never before fathomed. I am sure I will end up asking much advice concerning this subject.

Remdul

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Welcome Remdul.

I know how you feel. I feel that way some days. For many years I've been the same as you, never risking to ask out various female friends that I adored. It was to my own surprise that I took a risk about three months ago telling someone I was interested in them and luckily it paid off.

Even though I don't have much experience with this sort of thing, I can tell you that it may be a hard journey finding the one for you. That said, you might meet someone tomorrow that takes your breath away and you, theirs.

There's an old Ferengi Rule of Aquisition: "The riskier the road, the greater the profit." It's the same with love. At some stage you are going to have to take a risk asking someone out. Eventually you might have to take the even bigger risk of saying that you love them, always with the chance that they might say no. Every choice you make has the possibility of leading to pain. Every person must live with that. It is how we deal with things like that defines who we are.

You ask if it is better to sit on the sidelines and watch from afar? To take the Ferengi metaphor further, the feelings when you hit the jackpot are indescribable, but you have to be in the game to have any chance of winning, and you have to be willing to lose big to win big. In other words, you have to be willing to have your heart broken many times before you find the "right" one. Or you might be lucky and find them on the first try.

It is going to be a long, hard road to put a lifetime of that behavior behind you, but Maia is right. We are a supportive community and we'll help you as much as we can.

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Thank you, Astronomer Jedi... Your words touched my heart. It's is a long journey, indeed. But, it is a journey I am willing to make. I am willing to make sacrifices to be happy. I've never heard of the Ferengi Rules until now. I see though that they are true to the heart. I cannot afford to sit on the sidelines, not anymore. I am truly greatful. Thank you again.
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It's a funny thing. You have to be willing to get hurt to find the person you really love.

But if you truly do find the person for you, they won't hurt you.

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Like nwnf said, demons of loneliness can be easily exorcised with unholy amounts of C2H5OH.
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quote:
Originally posted by zesovietrussian:
Like nwnf said, demons of loneliness can be easily exorcised with unholy amounts of C2H5OH.

And porn.
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quote:
Originally posted by drunkennewfiemidget:
quote:
Originally posted by zesovietrussian:
Like nwnf said, demons of loneliness can be easily exorcised with unholy amounts of C2H5OH.

And porn.
Or building your own amusement park, with hookers and blackjack. Actually, screw the blackjack. And the amusement park.

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quote:
Originally posted by magefile:
Or building your own amusement park, with hookers and blackjack. Actually, screw the blackjack. And the amusement park.

I thought the goal was to screw the hookers?

/coat

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"Everyone will hurt you eventually. The hard part is deciding who's worth the pain."

I agree with you, Drunke.

Well.... where are you from? what is there to do in your area. Do you enjoys things other than your computer, like reading FICTION (hehe), eating out, or spending time out-of-doors?
I hope you feel better. Everyone's definition of loneliness can be different. Take me for example: I am surrounded by thousands of people a day, yet I have almost no relationship with any of them.
Are you meaning that you have isolated yourself by litterally having a barrier between yourself and others, or have you figuratively shut people out .... like me ?

IT WILL GET BETTER
THE SUN WILL SHINE BRIGHT
IF YOU TAKE TIME TO NOTICE
THE MOON AND IT'S NIGHT

ITS TIME YOU LEARNED TO RUN
JUST LET YOURSELF GO
ITS OKAY IF YOU TRIP
FOR NOT A SOUL WILL KNOW

DONT BE AFRAID OF THE DARK
IT COULD SHEATH A CERTAIN TREASURE
AND IF YOU NEVR EXPERIENCED PAIN
HOW WOULD YOU IDENTIFY PLEASURE

AND LISTEN TO THE RAIN
I HOPE IT MAKES YOU SMILE
AND RECIEVE THE GIFT OF BLISS
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A WHILE
[Applause]

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Welcome to our lonely skidmark on the internet.
Separated by hundreds or thousands of miles, but we have all found each other here.
For what that's worth.

That's sort od the way relationships work. Peopel are looking for each other. For connections. Out in the world. The only way to find one is to be out there too.

Most of teh time it won't work. Women will say things like "It's like you're the Girl!" and "Get out of my house!" But as was stated, we are who we are.

There is some one looking for someone like you.
In my opinion, the most attractive feature a person can have is confidence. It soudns like you're ready to take that crucial first step, but you need to have faith in yourself.

Think about what qualities you have that you are proud of.

And there is always Hope. Hope was the last, and most terrible thing to come out of Pandora's Box, after all.

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quote:
Originallly posted by Remdul:
Is it possible for the unworthy to be loved?

No. But then, nobody is unworthy of love. That is Lesson One.

quote:
Originallly posted by Remdul:
Can unrequited love be rewarded?

Yes. But it is usually rewarded by the learning of truths about oneself, and not by the affections of the loved one.

quote:
Originallly posted by Remdul:
Is there hope?

Yes. Always.

Having attempted to give honest answers to your perfectly reasonable questions, I will now say my piece..

Relax. Lighten up. There are many good people here. Tell us a little more about yourself and join in the debates (they get a little lively sometimes, but that's ok).

Moreover, enjoy! This is a good place to be. Welcome. [Smile]

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Thank you, Thank you all. You're advice has helped me emotionally. I realize I need to be more assertive in my actions, perhaps pass the barriers I have built up. I appreciate everyone for your help. This is one of the first places I can actually say I feel I belong and fit in.

Remdul

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i think gorditas are the way to any womans heart.
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Having a positive mind is always very helpful ^_^

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quote:
Originally posted by Astronomer Jedi:
There's an old Ferengi Rule of Aquisition: "The riskier the road, the greater the profit." It's the same with love.

<snip>

We are a supportive community and we'll help you as much as we can.

And only here will you pop in for love advice and get a dissertation involving Ferengi. Welcome aboard.

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The 9th Rule of Acquisition: Opportunity plus instinct equals profit.

Oh, and another one you might find useful.

Rule of Acquisition 229: Never be afraid to mislabel a product. [evil]

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how about some more applicable rules.

112. Never have sex with the boss's sister

94. Females and finances don't mix.

40. She can touch your lobes but never your latinum.

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3: Never spend more for an acquisition than you have to.

48: The bigger the smile, the sharper the knife.

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Estne volumen in toga, an solum tibi libet me videre?

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Rule #1 - Never argue with an idiot. Anyone walking by can't tell you two apart.

Rule #2 - One person laughs, it's funny.

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