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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 10, 2005 22:18
In an attempt to not seem like your average obsessed teenage punk who thinks he owns and controls every factor of their significant other's life I really hate what's going on lately.
She's beautiful, anyone who has seen her can't help but agree. She's gorgeous, and no pointy knees either (Trust me.) But this can be as detrimental to my mental health as it can be beneficial to her self esteem.
She's gone. For two weeks. Nashville, Tennessee.
The one place in the world I'd rather be than where I am. Nashville. The country music capital of the world. That is where I want to be. Now I have two reasons to want to be there.
She is there for some modeling stuff with Abercrombie & Fitch (WIDLI*).
Now, yes, she's gorgeous, and being picked for a modeling program can be very nice, but it can also be the opposite. She's the leader of an already intense schedule, and I almost go crazy trying to get her to calm down her situation but she's a workaholic.
I don't know what to do. She's in Tennessee, and I'm here in North Carolina.
She's a state away. Maybe I could get my dad to drive me to Nashville? It would take forever and a day but it'd be worth it to me. OR maybe I could get an airplane ticket and go there. Or maybe I could go out and stab the crutches into the ground a few hundred times. Or maybe this... or maybe that.
I want so badly to be where she is. To be the first one to tell her she's beautiful, and to be the one who says "What the hell do they know" if they don't like something about her.
I want to be there, and it's driving me crazy.
This rant is me trying to sort my predicament out through venting. Please, I say, for my dear sanity, someone help me out with this.
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n4dmx
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posted March 10, 2005 22:54
If you go, you run the risk of making her feel smothered or perhaps untrusted. ![[Frown]](frown.gif)
Otherwise, she might think it adorable. ![[Smile]](smile.gif) ![[Confused]](confused.gif)
Maybe one of the ladies in the house could elaborate?
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SilverBlade
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posted March 11, 2005 01:44
I know how you feel,TCTQ. There was this one time when my boyfriend left to Denmark for more than 6 weeks, while I stayed in Hong Kong. I was so miserable, I did not eat or drink properly. I also didn't sleep.
Yeah I bet you guys are thinking "Ha, yeah right" but it was true. I know I love him, but I didn't know how much I did until he left.
So TCTQ, my advice for you is to try and occupy yourself as much as possible. How long is she going to be gone for? If it is for a long while, then I think a visit will be the sweetest thing in the entire world. If it is a short while (in reality! Not in yuor mind), when I think a visit will indeed seem to smother her. But perhaps a phonecall?
Nevertheless, try your best to distract yourself. Take a job (if you haven't already), explore one of your hobbies, go out with your friends, you know.
If you want to talk, feel free to PM me. ![[Wink]](wink.gif) Good luck, and just keep in your mind that she will be home soon.
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angryjungman
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posted March 11, 2005 05:01
Last summer Steph went to the UK for a study abroad program for 6 weeks. It was horrible. While she was there, I managed to distract myself and it made the time pass more quickly [some will note, this is about the same time I started showing up in #joyoftech ![[Big Grin]](biggrin.gif) ]. If you can't find a way to distract yourself, remember the immortal words of DNA: "Time is an illusion. Lunchtime doubly so." Hang in there man. She'll be back before you know it.
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posted March 11, 2005 06:16
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Originally posted by angryjungman:
Last summer Steph went to the UK for a study abroad program for 6 weeks. It was horrible. While she was there, I managed to distract myself and it made the time pass more quickly [some will note, this is about the same time I started showing up in #joyoftech ]. If you can't find a way to distract yourself, remember the immortal words of DNA: "Time is an illusion. Lunchtime doubly so." Hang in there man. She'll be back before you know it.
why did you not tell us? me and Spungo could have "introduced" ourselves ![[evil]](graemlins/evil.gif) ![[devil wand]](graemlins/devilwand.gif)
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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 11, 2005 08:11
If I could occupy my mind, it'd be easier.
She'll only be gone for 2 weeks, but then you must remember, I'm stuck in bed most of the time, because I can only get around on crutches right now.
So, I'm stuck here.
I'm afraid if I sit in #joyoftech that I'll get too whiny.
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posted March 11, 2005 09:49
If there is a phone number where you can reach her, definitely call her. I think that going there would be too much since she is only gone for two weeks, and on crutches there wouldn't be much you could do in Nashville while she is busy anyway. I know a little bit about how you feel. After Josh and I had been dating for a year he left for two weeks to visit his mother in Kansas. I went nuts! Maybe you could start reading a book series (Wheel of Time is good, and nice and loooooong) or begin some sort of project like knitting, or model railroading. This could also be a good time to reconnect with some friends you may have been ignoring when your girlfriend was around.
And, if nothing else helps remember this:
Absence is to love what wind is to a flame; it extinguishes the small, and fans the great.
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posted March 11, 2005 10:15
Good advice from Peebs there. ![[thumbsup]](graemlins/thumbsup.gif)
And be warned... nothing is more of a turn-off than a whiny partner while you are busy trying to get a life. She needs to focus on what she's doing, not on the clingy person back home, You want to support her, not tie an anchor 'round her neck.
Save the whining for #joyoftech. That's what it's there for. ![[Razz]](tongue.gif)
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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 11, 2005 11:00
I told her the whole time how beautiful I thought she was and that I hope she has fun, and enjoys herself, because it's not every day that you get to go to Nashville for any reason.
I've been so supportive my friends have told me it makes them sick.
But in my heart, and more so in my mind, it has driven me crazy.
I've cried more in the past 5 days than I have in my whole life, including when my grandfather died, my great grandmother, my parents divorcing, my mom getting thrown down a flight of steps by my dad, almost dying, almost getting to the point where I wanted to kill myself. It has been worse than all of that combined.
I'm starting to get used to it, atleast knowing that she's coming back. The worst part of it all was the 2 or 3 weeks anticipating how much it would suck with her being in Tennessee. It wasn't until the last few days that I broke down. I went into Proud Mother Syndrome (also applicable for Proud Fathers) where I was crying and telling her how proud I was of her.
As far as she knows, I'm handling it well.
I have no idea what her number is, she didn't even know what room number she was going to be in. It was to be assigned when she got there.
I don't know how to contact her, so I just have to wait until she gets back and cry my heart out. When she gets home, it'll all be so much sweeter.
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posted March 11, 2005 17:41
Believe it or not, the only relationships I've had are LDR's (yep, all 2 of them) so my first instinct is to laugh and say "Two weeks? That's nothing!" But then again I've freaked out when people I've liked at school aren't there for ONE DAY, so I see where you're coming from. Call if at all possible, and send love and support. I'd suggest "I'm glad you're over there modeling, you get to show the world how beautiful you are."
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posted March 11, 2005 20:58
/me grabs Taco by the shoulders and shakes him a bit. Come on man...toughen up.
Seriously, though, the time will pass, and you'll see her again. As it has been said - she's doing her thing - let her make the most of it, and have fun. I'm sure she hasn't forgotten about you. Definitely try calling - let your fingers do the walking.
Distractions are always a good thing - but if you want to focus on her more, write her a song, or something. Otherwise, compile the latest kernel, or even better, do your homework. I was planning on coding an interpreter tonight, but ended up building my own firewall/NAT/PAT box tonight and stress testing a server - I had been wanting to try out Smoothwall, and it was good. I'll continue sketching out the program tomorrow, and hopefully get it coded before Sunday. (Why the deadline? Well, it might make an interesting conversation piece with a certain someone...or so I hope... [and I'm really personally interested in this pet project])
Oh yeah, and remember what a lucky guy you are...so stop your whining! You don't hear me complaining [here], do you?
Come on over to #JoT, where I was just complaining about the stupid 50 states 'pig/snake/etc/fscking POS' ads...you're welcome to rant there.
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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 12, 2005 07:47
Words of Encouragement, I guess.
I don't figure that it'll seem too long after it's all over but, the worst part of the end of time is waiting for it to come, I guess.
This will be an exercise of patience.
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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 14, 2005 20:01
Oh my wow! This is amazing.
She came home early and suprised me. She showed up at 4 o'clock and walked into my room and saw me laying face-first into the pillow sobbing and lay down next me and it took me 2 hours now (she left 2 hours ago) to realize that no, it was not just a dream.
She stayed from 4 PM to 9:30 PM but from 8:30 and on it was mostly sleeping. (She was tired, had been up for 24 hours, and I hadn't slept a wink the past 5 days)
So, now she's back, and not going back.
I don't know what to do right now. Cry or laugh or what.
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posted March 14, 2005 20:09
So her gig went from two weeks to four days? Is that a good sign as far as her modeling career goes? Or is that not a good thing?
Hang in there, Taco.
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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 14, 2005 20:18
She decided to give up modeling... for some reason. She said "I just decided that, I know that you were sitting there saying 'You're beautiful' every chance you got and I was trying to get people to tell me I'm beautiful. I realized when I got there that being told I'm beautiful means nothing to me if it's not your voice." Those are close to her exact words. She had a hard time explaining why she came back.
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TMBWITW,PB
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posted March 15, 2005 09:32
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Thread title:
When I get that feeling
So, when she got back did you get some "sexual healing"?
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posted March 15, 2005 09:42
Peebs, you read my mind exactly.
EVery time I saw this thread that's what came to mind.
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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 15, 2005 11:11
That's what came to mind when I made the thread.
"When I get that feeling, I want sexual healin'"
So, you guys weren't far off. As far as actually getting sexual healing goes... well... I'll let you decide.
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posted March 15, 2005 23:32
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Originally posted by Too Cool To Quit:
She showed up at 4 o'clock and walked into my room and saw me laying face-first into the pillow sobbing
Such a turn on, that.
Oh jeez, I'm a jerk. ![[shake head]](graemlins/shakehead.gif)
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posted March 15, 2005 23:42
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Originally posted by Demosthenes:
Such a turn on, that.
Oh jeez, I'm a jerk.
That was pretty harsh, yes. Taco's still a teenager, and I'm sure he'll learn that being over clingy and overdependent on a relationship is unhealthy, even if it takes time. Heck, I was like that myself, even when I was significantly older than he was (about 22 or so). But these things can be changed, as I am living proof of.
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posted March 16, 2005 10:40
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Originally posted by SilverBlade:
I dunno, I like a guy who can express his feelings.
Glad to know she is back TCTQ!
You do? honest?
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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 16, 2005 14:17
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Originally posted by Demosthenes:
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Originally posted by Too Cool To Quit:
She showed up at 4 o'clock and walked into my room and saw me laying face-first into the pillow sobbing
Such a turn on, that.
Oh jeez, I'm a jerk.
Keep in mind that I've got more than her as a problem. At that time I was crying over physical pain, you know, that stuff that hurts a whole lot when you get cut open and sewed back up and run out of pain medication? Yeah, I was upset because she was gone, but I was also in a lot of physical pain. Most of my mental anguish would only show at night when I know no one is going to show up. I was in a lot of pain, and I was just coming off my last bit of pain medicine so it kind of came as a shock just how much it hurts. At that time I had finally come to the conclusion that she'd be back soon enough, and that was the least of my worries. Bah, maybe I'm just bitching about something mundane that everyone has to go through at the age of 15. Maybe I'm just going through "hormones." Maybe I've never had to deal with things most people will never experience in their life. Maybe I'm just like everyone else. Then again, I highly doubt that.
Edit: Note, this is just me being pissed off as I can be right now because I read something that was obviously inflammatory. I do know that I didn't put any thing about crying or screaming because I was in physical pain, and therefore just consider this a "Taco is pissed off over nothing at all" rant.
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posted March 16, 2005 19:30
It's also probably the lack of painkillers. I've come off strong painkillers (codeine, morphine, etc.) numerous times, and it always makes me edgy, irritable, and prone to frustration/depression.
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Too Cool To Quit
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posted March 16, 2005 19:51
It was monday that I came off of the Pain Medication. So, that doesn't explain today.
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